Contemplating on the very fact that I was here and yes, I was on a wild ride to greens. Greens? What’s that? In the last six months I have gone through a makeover, mentally, and the outlook is suddenly changed. Still I’m really confused as mind keeps on musing on a thought like a million dollar idea or a great business career or even scuba diving in the corals of Lakshwadeep. And I can know people reading this have been gone through this phase of life. These musings are proper elaborated in my earlier post, please read if missed 😉
Now the greens… What is Green’s? The greens I define here is what I do not have. Listing is endless. But truly, every human being on this earth is surviving on the hay and yet he can see the greens on the other side. After my initial busy days at Satyam, I got myself time and my mind was out to wander. I started to blog and then it became a necessity. But then the era was over, and I was onto a project. The project demanded to learn new things on the functional side of the world. This was just enough to embark my thought process and to divulge into a time machine and see myself on the other side of my project interviewerâs desk. I stared off with a bang, like all theories start with a bang. SQL and PLSQL were the languages I spoke and words like ‘explain plan’, ‘trace files’ and ‘performance’ were haunting the empty chambers of my now not idle brain. Losing on the bond from my life I went so into the code, as I always get lost, I forgot that I have to be brisk to get ahead of the race. And there I was, at the end of my first release (project release) with my code ready to be deployed. Applause! Applause! Applause! I really got those when I executed all my work in a true professional style. But it was so good to find out that every motorcade always starts with a bang and ends on a sacrifice. And that was the end of my happy moments and suddenly it seemed so creepy to enter my cubicle and log on to a system with the myriad of problems (wtf, I want 2GB’s of RAM). And my TL’s wish-list was full of demands from a young and an explosive persona like me. I was feeling great on people having conviction on me. But suddenly I was feeling much comfortable on bench. The bench now seemed to be greener than anything else I could imagine of. My project is one of the biggest in Satyam and also most Indian IT companies survive because of my project client. These international clients follow a thumb rule of not allowing any Indian IT company to have a whole and sole responsibility of a particular module, leave alone a project. So in its multi-vendor concept injustice is bound to occur and thus the grasses seem so lush green on the other side that we forget to evolve on the hay we get. Thatâs really true and people like me (99% of intellectual people messed up in Indian IT companies) start getting anxious.
Embarking on a complete new journey, my brain waves started inducing noise into my present and my dreams. No dollar dreams yet! The noise got into me so much that I lost self reliance. At Some points of time an iPod Touch will suffice my needs or at some times even a pent house on Marine drive seems to be like at hands reach. Here, you guys will be confused as of where Iâm heading to. I too am confused with the same. But, finally I left behind the affliction and now it seems that this is life. Nothing is going to come in future and nothing is what I have to wait for. This very moment is the moment of my life and each and every phase of my life is a phase (good or bad) and I have to go through it. Now it seems, there is nothing like after some years my life will be great and I will be more happy, but rather It will be more sad and with more problems to tackle. Thus Looking beyond the horizons we miss the true spirit and fun of life. But still, it seems, “The grass is always greener on the other side” 😉
Got to go now, as I have to plan for my MBA in Finance or an Oracle Certified consultant in Financials. See! Here I go again…